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SO i created this blog with the hope of being inspired to document my life through text...but i don't really have much to say. During the week, my life is monotonous, uneventful, and some might even say disgustingly boring--I never saw this coming. I vowed i'd never work a 9-5, I'd never sit at a desk all day, and I'd try to travel out of the country at LEAST twice a year, it's funny how things turn out. I'm in desperate need of change: a change of scene, a change of pace and a change of career. I'm pretty sure complacency is the closest thing to hell that I've ever experienced. I'm not saying i don't like my life, because i do, i love it in fact, I just need to get beyond these gray skies, beyond the small minds, and beyond the poor grammar. I have two vacations lined up and the weather is getting warmer everyday, soon things won't be so drab (change of scene)! I've been working out a lot lately so i have a lot energy, and once it warms up a little more I'll probably regain my urge to walk the dogs for hours (change of pace) . I'm going back to school in the fall and HOPEFULLY completely changing my career. I'll be studying to obtain a B.S. in Clinical Dietetics and Nutrition, god i can't wait.

ok, i don't really have anything else to say...i'll try again tomorrow.

SSSSSSSEEEEEEEVVVVVVVEEEEEEENNNNNNN

So Holly tagged me to write about seven things you don't know about me. I think i'm an open book so it might be kinda difficult to muster up things yinz don't know, here goes:


1. About 5 years ago, I was using a stall in the bathroom at my job, and in my head, i heard my own voice say, "You are going to die today". It's the oddest experience I've ever had. I cried a little, came to terms with it and i didn't tell anyone. obviously i didn't die, but since that day I've been really ok with dying.

2. I was 11 years old the first time i watched porn.

3. I truly believe I've had several past lives. Sometimes I'll know a lot about a topic i've never researched or even read about, then i'll look it up and be right about it. This happened pretty frequently when i was a child, and I always thought it was because i was on my 100th life or something. I'm a pretty logical person and this barely makes any sense to me, but sometimes it's ok believe in things no matter how absurd they are. Just 'cause.


4. I don't realize how young 24 years old really is.


5. I could carry a decent conversation by the age of 1, and could read well by 2. When my mom my sister and i went to enroll my sister into preschool, I commented on the director's terrarium, and she said any 2 year old who knows what a terrarium is should definitely be in school. So I began preschool at 2, and stayed for 3 years until i was 5. When i was a kid, i didn't understand why my mom never let me skip grades or be thrown into overly challenging intellectual situations(don't get me wrong, i was in gifted programs and read a lot of books geared for an older audience, but i didn't go to college lectures, you know what i mean). When i asked her about it in my late teens, she told me, in order to properly socially develop, children need to be in age appropriate environments, and the she thinks i turned out just fine. I am so thankful that she felt that way because i'm pretty much a social butterfly, and i can work any crowd. I'm so happy to not be all pocket protector-y.

6. I've always wanted a pair of saddle shoes.


7. I hated ketchup, mushrooms, hot sauce and garlic until i became vegan. now i LOVE those four things.

Let's Get Physical.

I'm buzzing with energy! I can barely sit still, and I danced in my office to a reggae song before I even took my coat off. I got up at 5:00AM and ran on my elliptical machine for an hour, and then I took my dogs for a 20 minute walk in the rain. Now as a result, I’m so wide awake I feel as if I could jump out of my skin. Although, actually jumping out of my skin would be utterly disgusting, I feel really good. I'm literally high on life, and mainly high on exercise. I don't have an addictive personality, but I'm becoming obsessed with working out. My need to pump iron, run, kick box, walk, dance and do yoga isn't at all for vanity's sake. I just want to be as healthy as I possibly can, to feel LIFE. Physical activity seems to really agree with my body. When I don't work out regularly, I honestly feel like I’m dying. I can really feel my metabolism slowing down, and all of my adipose tissue (fat) cells remembering how big they once were. But when I work out, I feel immediate affects of releasing toxins from my body through sweat, and I’m renewed, I'm alive. I've never had a hobby or experience that makes me feel as good as I do when I’m regularly taking care of my body. Maybe it's because I’ve never done hard drugs. Maybe it's because I read a lot about the human body, and I know to pay attention to the information my body gives me, who knows? I really wanted to be done with this blog, but I can't now, because this is a perfect segue for me to explain proprioception and kinesthetic awareness. Proprioception is the concept of unconsciously understanding muscle/organ contractions INSIDE of the body, and being able to identify what the possible stimuli for the reaction could have been. Although this is unconscious, if our bodies can't fix the problem, they'll tell us in the form of pain or abnormality. for example: you eat a meal of fried, battered, processed food, and the next day your stomach is all jacked up, and you're basically number 1'ing out of the number 2 hole, and your stomach is killing you...you say oh it must have been the XYZ I ate from McDonald’s. This is pretty common. Another more subtle example is, you wake up one day and your back is killing you, and you don't know what could have caused it. Would you ever think it might possibly be your kidneys' reaction to being over worked b/c you haven't eaten enough fiber or haven't consumed enough h2o, thus making your bodily fluids too toxic for your kidneys to correctly process and aide in elimination of said toxins? In Western, mainly American, culture, we're not really taught about proprioception, and how to pay attention to the things our bodies tell us 24 hours a day. I'm obviously not a scientist or a Dr. but I think it's because we have machines that can painlessly look inside of our bodies, and if that isn't helpful enough, we can safely have our bodies OPENED to figure things out, to "fix" things. I could go on forever, but this is my first blog, and at this point keeping it brief isn't an option, I’ll try to keep it fairly simple. So...kinesthetic awareness. This is a completely conscious concept. It's our body's ability to understand its movements through space at all times. It's why Michael Jordan can "fly" and land on his feet. It separates the clumsy from the deft, and it can be learned. Lately I’ve been working on understanding what I’m doing and how it makes me feel. Like right now my ass in a chair and my nerves are telling me that, but I don't pay attention to it unless I stop myself and think about it. My fingers are typing on the keyboard but I usually ignore and don't even notice the way that the keys feel. Putting a bottle of water up to my lips and actually feeling those little ridges has become a lot more spiritual than it once was. haha. All crazy health nut rant aside, I've come to the realization, the more I understand about my body and how it affects my life, the better I can understand the world. There's so much more we all can learn about ourselves, starting with the really minute details.