Stimulus Check

Just a little advice: PLEASE don't blow your stimulus check on some expensive shit you wouldn't normally buy. Add it to your savings. If you don't have a savings account, open a savings account with it. You'll gain interest on it. Why not make it work for you?

the tangled web and weave.

When i was a little girl, i would stare at my hair in the mirror for hours, just trying to understand, how i could make it straight. How would i get my hair to be more manageable? and I'd ask god WHY on earth he gave me this horribly nappy hair. Why did it have to hurt so badly when my mom combed it? There was a girl in my first grade class, named Priscilla , and i remember during recess she would get out her barbie brush and the plastic Mattel novelty would flow through her hair just as smoothly as a shark swam through water. It was amazing, beautiful. I went home and tried it and the shit got STUCK! Then it hurt even MORE the next time my mom combed my hair b/c it was all knotted from said brush fiasco. Since i still believed in god, I'd pray every night:

Jesus I love you, All i have is you, Yours i am, And yours i want to be, do with me what you will, Now i lay me down to sleep, i pray the lord my soul to keep and if i die before i wake, i pray the lord my soul to take. Bless Mom, Bless Dad, Bless Lauren, Bless Grandma, and Granddad, Bless all of my aunts, uncles and cousins, and all of the people in the world that don't have families. PLEASE GOD IF I WAKE UP AND MY HAIR IS STRAIGHT AND FLOWING UNTIL AT LEAST THE MIDDLE OF MY BACK, I'LL NEVER DO ANYTHING BAD AGAIN. I'LL NEVER TALK BACK TO MY PARENTS, OR START FIGHTS WITH MY SISTER AND I'LL STOP WHISPERING SWEAR WORDS WHEN I'M IN THE TUB SINCE I KNOW NO ODY CAN HEAR ME! PLEASE. IT DOESN'T EVEN HAVE TO BE LIKE KELLY BUNDY STRAIGHT LIKE I SAID LAST NIGHT! I'LL BE FINE WITH LISA TURTLE, OR MARIAH CAREY STRAIGHT! EVEN CHILI FROM TLC! and I'd end every prayer with God, please show me a miracle!

I'd wake up in the morning look in the mirror, hop in the shower and start WHISPER SWEARING the 3 swear words i knew, because my hair was still nappy! aww hell, why isn't my hair straight! i said i would stop cussing, well damn no I'm not gonna stop! this is crazy, mother fucker(i picked this one up as a result of witnessing my dad's road rage when someone cut him off in traffic)!


SO when i was in fifth grade, i got braids. This was my solution! It allowed me to wear any style i wanted without even having to brush or comb it! I could wear it up, down, to the side, in a french braid, half up, or pig tails! EAT YOUR DAMN HEART OUT PRISCILLA !!

So for the past 15 years, braids have been a go to when i got sick of combing, frying, and ripping out my hair -- not for my past solution to not having straight hair, but just pure laziness. I hate doing my hair, i don't have to do anything to it when it's in braids.

I'd had:
'Fros, corn rows, glued in weaves, Nigerian thread style braids, twisties, flat ironed straight styles anything you can imagine.

Black hair can be such a struggle, but why?

I've recently learned about some new products that african women have been using for centuries...so expect a natural style soon.

The Privilege Meme

I don't know how old this is, and many of you may have seen this already, but the original authors of this blogging exercise are Will Barratt, Meagan Cahill, Angie Carlen, Minnette Huck, Drew Lurker, and Stacy Ploskonka. If you participate, they ask that you please acknowledge their copyright. Although i haven't read much about it, i believe this exercise is merely a tool used to display how your experience/privileges differ based on race, socio-economic class and educational background.
Bold the statements that apply to you.

Father went to college
Father finished college
Mother went to college
Mother finished college
Have any relative who is an attorney, physician, or professor
Were the same or higher class than your high school teachers
Had more than 50 books in your childhood home
Had more than 500 books in your childhood home
Were read children's books by a parent
Had lessons of any kind before you turned 18
Had more than two kinds of lessons before you turned 18
The people in the media who dress and talk like me are portrayed positively
Had a credit card with your name on it before you turned 18
Your parents (or a trust) paid for the majority of your college costs
Your parents (or a trust) paid for all of your college costs
Went to a private high school
Went to summer camp
Had a private tutor before you turned 18
Family vacations involved staying at hotels
Your clothing was all bought new before you turned 18
Your parents bought you a car that was not a hand-me-down from them i don't drive but they did this for my sister.
There was original art in your house when you were a child
Had a phone in your room before you turned 18
You and your family lived in a single family house
Your parent(s) owned their own house or apartment before you left home
You had your own room as a child
Participated in an SAT/ACT prep course
Had your own TV in your room in High School
Owned a mutual fund or IRA in High School or College
Flew anywhere on a commercial airline before you turned 16
Went on a cruise with your family
Went on more than one cruise with your family
Your parents took you to museums and art galleries as you grew up
You were unaware of how much heating bills were for your family



As i expected, a lot of these have been bolded...I guess i was a privileged child? I wonder what MY children (someday if i have them) would be able to relate to in bold faced font. Hopefully they can experience everything on this list. there's a theory that states you can never be poorer than your parents, and success generally progresses through generations...guess i better start their college funds now.

Warmth

I just want to say hooray for spring! During the months of November-march, I'm an introverted (if such a thing is possible), lesser version of myself. It's as if the sky clouds my thoughts, judgement or ability to be pleasant and/or display how happy I truly am. I'm always happy. Content. Satisfied. But when Jack Frost comes to town, i just don't have the energy to be exactly who I am. I hate jackets, i hate winter hats, i hate winter boots, I hate gloves. The only good thing about winter is how peacefully dead everything becomes after snow has fallen. There's really nothing else i can compare it to. Everyone cozy in their houses/apartments, drinking warm drinks, and outdoors the silence is so thick you can cut it with a knife. Enough about winter... it's SPRING! I can walk ANYWHERE! for HOURS! I can stand outside without a plan beyond simply existing in the warmth of the sun. I can take my dogs in the backyard and actually let them play (opposed to making them do their business and hurrying back inside)! Joe and I can go camping, hiking, swimming, thank goodness. Grilling, laughing, drinking...the list could go on forever.

SPRING!! Who wants to play outside??