the tangled web and weave.

When i was a little girl, i would stare at my hair in the mirror for hours, just trying to understand, how i could make it straight. How would i get my hair to be more manageable? and I'd ask god WHY on earth he gave me this horribly nappy hair. Why did it have to hurt so badly when my mom combed it? There was a girl in my first grade class, named Priscilla , and i remember during recess she would get out her barbie brush and the plastic Mattel novelty would flow through her hair just as smoothly as a shark swam through water. It was amazing, beautiful. I went home and tried it and the shit got STUCK! Then it hurt even MORE the next time my mom combed my hair b/c it was all knotted from said brush fiasco. Since i still believed in god, I'd pray every night:

Jesus I love you, All i have is you, Yours i am, And yours i want to be, do with me what you will, Now i lay me down to sleep, i pray the lord my soul to keep and if i die before i wake, i pray the lord my soul to take. Bless Mom, Bless Dad, Bless Lauren, Bless Grandma, and Granddad, Bless all of my aunts, uncles and cousins, and all of the people in the world that don't have families. PLEASE GOD IF I WAKE UP AND MY HAIR IS STRAIGHT AND FLOWING UNTIL AT LEAST THE MIDDLE OF MY BACK, I'LL NEVER DO ANYTHING BAD AGAIN. I'LL NEVER TALK BACK TO MY PARENTS, OR START FIGHTS WITH MY SISTER AND I'LL STOP WHISPERING SWEAR WORDS WHEN I'M IN THE TUB SINCE I KNOW NO ODY CAN HEAR ME! PLEASE. IT DOESN'T EVEN HAVE TO BE LIKE KELLY BUNDY STRAIGHT LIKE I SAID LAST NIGHT! I'LL BE FINE WITH LISA TURTLE, OR MARIAH CAREY STRAIGHT! EVEN CHILI FROM TLC! and I'd end every prayer with God, please show me a miracle!

I'd wake up in the morning look in the mirror, hop in the shower and start WHISPER SWEARING the 3 swear words i knew, because my hair was still nappy! aww hell, why isn't my hair straight! i said i would stop cussing, well damn no I'm not gonna stop! this is crazy, mother fucker(i picked this one up as a result of witnessing my dad's road rage when someone cut him off in traffic)!


SO when i was in fifth grade, i got braids. This was my solution! It allowed me to wear any style i wanted without even having to brush or comb it! I could wear it up, down, to the side, in a french braid, half up, or pig tails! EAT YOUR DAMN HEART OUT PRISCILLA !!

So for the past 15 years, braids have been a go to when i got sick of combing, frying, and ripping out my hair -- not for my past solution to not having straight hair, but just pure laziness. I hate doing my hair, i don't have to do anything to it when it's in braids.

I'd had:
'Fros, corn rows, glued in weaves, Nigerian thread style braids, twisties, flat ironed straight styles anything you can imagine.

Black hair can be such a struggle, but why?

I've recently learned about some new products that african women have been using for centuries...so expect a natural style soon.