Thanks.

This is an excerpt from an e-mail thread with a friend. I wrote it in a moment of self reflection.


I am really fortunate that i have my parents' help and support in whatever i do. I think at times it's hurt me, or i guess allowed me to let myself slip? I did really well in school for my entire life, so they never had to ride me, and i really didn't have any rules. I was definitely taught virtuous lessons, but maybe since i got it, they didn't wanna push it and force me to rebel? I got bored with college and decided to make money and they were behind me 100%. It's ultimately a good thing, but had they been more strict or disapproving, I'd probably be done with school now..BUT in a career i wasn't passionate about. Honestly, if i told my parents i wanted to go to clown school, my mom would say, can't wait to see you in the circus baby! haha. How do they do it? I think it's my mom and her influence on my dad. she's one of the most open minded, intuitive, intelligent compassionate people that i know. I really want to grow up to be just like her...well other than the sedentary lifestyle. I wanna be an active version of my mom. If i was a teenager hearing myself say this, I'd be SHOCKED. Like every teenager, i couldn't stand my parents and i thought they were so OLD and unhip! haha. guess it was just my hormones. Also my dad is a really sensitive guy, and he's a really hard worker, and he does it for us. God our generation doesn't know shit about that! Like how the fuck am I gonna feed some kids let alone buy them gadgets? All i got to give them is love, FUCK.I have to clothe them!? WOW!